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Monday, May 12, 2008 5/12/2008 10:41:00 PM
currently blasting marching bands of manhattan by death cab for cutie.
i love this song.i've been loving it since..2006?almost 2 years now.
its one of the only songs that calms me down.brings me to a neutral level.
im at peace.for now.
but i know,very soon.hmmm.
everytime something happens in my life,
i actually stop to think.
could this actually be the turning point in my life?
better or worse,i don't really care.
i just wanna know if this will turn my life around.
i guess these times are the only times in my life where
i finally don't do reckless things and actually ponder my next move.for once.
close friends of mine,who know me well,know what kinda person i am.
the sort whos like 'pleasure first,pain later' kinda person.
so i dun really plan things ahead.
but i realise im already 19.
no matter what bullcrap talk i might ever spurt outta my mouth,
no matter how profound the language is,or how wise or mature or whatever it may sound.
its just all talk.
unless i finally decide to do something with my life,and the way which im going,
(i dun really pay attention in all classes btw)
im just gonna end up like your average everyday neighbourhood ah-beng,post poly studies.
the only thing that i'll have is,probably a diploma.
then find a job,work,and work til i retire and die?
thats the start of my working life 3 years from now?
its gonna be hell lotta boring.
i've friends around me,who have already wisen up.
they now focus more on doing things that they have a passion for.
took control of their lives,probably because they love themselves too much
to let their future go to a waste.
yes,im talking about you,mr gas mask.
cause thats what set me thinking.
hey.i love myself too.why am i doing things that will just eventually throw away my future.
if i really love myself,why arent i working hard to make my life much better in the future?
doing the things i do now,im just killing myself and the beautiful future that im destined to have.
no,im not thick skinned.or just being dumb.
i know when i was borned,im gifted with the ability to mould my own future,
not like majority of the dumbasses you see in society nowadays.
especially singapore.
all the crap they say.
"aiya singapore government yadda yadda,work so hard also no use government just eat your money"
well,BALLSHIT.
im sorry if this post is actually insulting to any of you.
cause if you're actually in control of your life,
you'll probably smile with pride,going
"hey thats what i did/am doing right now!"
while the others,with no motive or goal in life,
just mucking around,waiting for their perfect gf/bf to come by,
and get married and live life happily ever after
is just eating air.
i dun see how finding a perfect spouse is able to feed yourself and have a good life.
seriously.
but once again,im sorry.go ahead with your goalless life.
its fine by me if you don't love yourself.
hence,
this marks the start of my journey to finally do more things in life.
this is the perfect time to go after my interests.
i've had it with me always saying stuff,but i never do them.
or probably do them 3 years later.
which is kinda late.
most people reading will probably say,
"daryl will probably revert to his old self soon.give him 3 hours."
maybe you're right.
but we shall see.
cheers to me finally getting a life.
for the guys who read all the above and supporting my decision,
cheers to you too.i love you guys.
my life as a mature,thinking young adult,starts here!
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