hmm,after reading something posted on the internet i decided to give my very own review and thoughts.
lets see..
mentality and maturity level higher then anyone coming from a rich family? just because you take more hardship than others doesnt make you more mature. if you are looking for the word,its "sensible". i really dont see how taking in more hard knocks in life could make you more superior than "rich family people" mentally and maturity wise.
i mean,you can pull through all the hardship through sheer dumb luck, and learn totally nothing from it.no plus points to maturity level. im not saying you are like that but yeah you get my point.
also,im speaking from a 'non rich family' point of view. my family isnt rich.sometimes at the end of the month things can get really financially tight for us. but we still pull through.meh
i digress.
anyways,you misunderstand my point. when i said "still need your mum to clean after your shit?" i of course didnt mean you are mummy's girl. im trying to put across that you are behaving like a child, when it comes to resolving problems you just run away saying "its my fault sorry" jeez.
i also hate how in your current pm you put, "only you have the most respect" it really pisses me off how you put things like that in your pm. you are not making it any better,you are only making it worse.
contribution to the project? did i not do what i was tasked? i tried my best to meet all deadlines just so that the project wouldnt fall crumble like cookies. and i believe saying it more then a couple of times "if you think my piece of work sucks,tell me.i will go redo." just so that on top of everything you had to do,you dont have to redo my part.
also regarding the scott jones last minute email raising requirements of what he wants to see in our week 8 presentation, i remember saying it countless times, "it isnt your fault,so why not spread the workload?its not like they are leading very busy lives" but you just choose to do everything by yourself. yes,i offered to share the workload,and i did less than half of everything. but i offered to help out even more,asking you to send me some of cheryl's wireframe for me to do at home.i mean like i have so much free time.why wouldnt you allow me to help?
yes,you did ask me to do ryan's part,and i refused. i let my personal feelings about him affect the project. it was very unprofessional of me,and i sincerely apologize for that.
yes,i know you despise our group. it was probably the unluckiest day of your life on the day that the groupings were made. i was absent,and when i heard about the groupings, i truly felt sorry for you. do you remember? i actually apologized to you.for being assigned to your group. for our group,passing was already difficult,let alone getting grades like A or B. it was imminent that your gpa will be pulled down by this module. but i dont blame you.if i was you i too wouldnt be too happy too. such a shitty group,we were almost doomed to fail.
yes i know i suck as a leader. but wasnt it you who pleaded with me to be the group leader? i already told you that you shouldnt be expecting too much when im in charge.
i tried to be understanding. "be nice to her" i often told myself. i really,really tried my best to make you happy. but i dont know if i succeeded too well or fail horribly. cause at the end,you just said, "dont be too nice to me,i dont like it." i was pissed,possibly heartbroken. i tried so hard,who am i doing this for? my acts of kindness obviously went unappreciated.
all in all, i just want to apologize for all the discouraging words that i had said to you in your most difficult times. i loved you as a friend,but day by day i lost my understanding of you til i totally couldnt comprehend you anymore. perhaps our friendship was fated to end on a sour note.
wow.seriously. you resorting to that really shows how immature you are. too pussy to talk things out? still need your mum to clean after your shit? i guess.
you think that i can never get serious when doing work? especially the stupid fucking project module? you think that all my suggestions are nothing but crap so its perfectly okay to dismiss them without giving any thought to it?
yeah sure,you are the "talent" of the group. the rest of us are just failing idiots pulling your grades down.
i mean at the end of the day people will still say to me, "eh boy shut up lah knnbccb your gpa 2.1 only hers 3.9 you listen to her lah chao fuck" oh well.
you obviously lack respect for others.
its also funny how most decisions are made by you and when it comes to shit,i get stuff like. "you are the leader,its up to you." ha-ha.
you also like to throw the phrase "close friends" and stuff like that around, but at the end of the day, we all realize it means nothing. day after day its your deceit we are chewing on.
since i am tired now i guess i will just have to sum it up in one sentence before i go sleep. its only been a short while,but im sick of attitude problem of yours. so go fix yourself,or go fuck yourself.
Saturday, November 22, 2008 11/22/2008 12:52:00 AM
i think its for the best for me not to believe everything that i ever hear. getting disappointment in return over and over again isnt exactly what i am looking for in life. people are so full of shit...
i was so tired today i conked out from 8-10pm. and since my hp is rarely turned to silent, my message tone was loud and kinda disturbed my sleep so i reluctantly got up..grabbed my handphone, glanced at the message and fell back to sleep.
when i woke up at 10pm,i realized my hp was still in my hand, and when i checked my hp,there were 2 more messages other then that one, which surprisingly the other 2 didnt wake me up. and i also realized that i had subconciously replied the first message in my sleep! to a question which i was supposed to reply 'not sure', i had actually typed 'not share'. but hey its considered not bad already okay, i was sleeping!
i think that things like that happen naturally when some people are just too talented. :D
following a good friend's advice, i decided to actually start doing my work. obviously i came to regret it...idiots.
humans will never learn their lesson. epic fail.
LIST OF THINGS TO BUY FOR MYSELF -wow prepaid -wrath of lich king -another pair of raw jeans -BACKPACK -a drink
Wednesday, November 19, 2008 11/19/2008 12:42:00 AM
i felt really bad when meizhen pleaded with us to not go have a smoke cause we already just had one but we just walked off regardless of her persistence.
prawn fishing is rewarding! HEHE. firstly i caught 4 prawns;first 4 in my life. then 4 of us caught a total of 16 prawns and at around 3am,we were the only ones there and we found a net with 11 prawns inside. so we just cooked all 27 prawns there,took the net home cause it didnt belong to bottle tree park (good quality net sam says) and on top of that we were given 6tickets X 6hours each free! i guess i musta been too handsome.sigh.
sam just watching your fucking diet. it may look like killing yourself, but i was once pretty affected by it too. but now its just a lifestyle that i have come to accept. shit happens in life,so meh.
after that we went to coffeeshop...and waited til around 5am so that wee meng could take the first train home. but it didnt come til 545 or something.LOL.
i went home and slept at around 530am.. woke up 4.5hrs later at 10am,idk why either. for the whole day i pretty much stayed home, taking naps and waking up.
went out later in the night which i came to regret. was feeling a little disorientated but hey i promised. only to go out and get fucking disappointed. jeez.
annnnd WOO its past 12 so its officially 17 nov. happy 1 month,my unwashed cheap mondays! 5 more months to go before your bath.woot.
i dun feel like going school tomorrow. i'd hate to see a shit storm. on a freaking monday.
its late at night, i should be sleeping right now cause sleeping healthy is good for the body, but i believe that when things have escalated to this, i feel the need to speak,to voice out my true feelings, hence this very important blogpost.
i just want to say that i want to play wrath of the lich king. it released today in singapore and i have yet to get it, and my monthly subscription expired,i have yet to renew it. i have not pwned for 11days. i feel very sad.
this past week has been pretty fun. last saturday,hanging out with my best buds,
G : you have girl legs. daryl : you have a girl's private part. G : ...fuck you.
and also sam said to me, "if i were to compare you to exactly a year ago,i would say you've changed alot." which made my day.or night.whatever was appropiate at that moment. weeee.
went prawn fishing for the very first time, caught nothing,but exactly 24hours from now im gonna try again. im a soon to be master hauler of prawns.
i dont want to be the fool of the class at the end of my poly life.
if you guys havent noticed,the class is breaking up.meh.
i think i shouldnt attempt to change myself. maybe i shine more when im doing things alone.
nothing much to say about school weekdays, except that sandman likes to visit me rather often, i think hes gay.
i spent too much this week. at this rate im never going buy the things i need. noooooooooooooooooooo.
yes,i know my blog is boring, and it will be for a very long time. the only thing i can say is enjoyment from reading my blog is an acquired taste. :D
things could get worse tomorrow. i hope my nightmares dont come back... im fucking scared....
Thursday, November 06, 2008 11/06/2008 12:53:00 AM
OH MY GOD THIS GUY IS FUCKING TALENTED. YOU GUYS HAVE TO WATCH THIS. I CAN GUARANTEE YOUR NEXT 3MINS WILL NOT BE WASTED.
stupid com skills roleplaying today. i didnt go for the morning rehearsal, so i didnt had lines for scene 2 so i just said whatever came to my mind, which was totally random blabber. thanks to zhien yi for actually being able to answer my dumb random lines. your impromptu skills are the skillz. i still feel bad for screwing up though. sorry guys.........
watched tropic thunder today after school and i have to say,its one of the funniest movies i have seen in months or YEARS. i mean like yes i laugh alot in real life and shit but the past comedy movies i've watched doesnt even make me laugh. its not that im too dumb to understand the humour, its just that the humour there is too mild that it doesnt even tickle me.
awww fuck. my laptop went kaboom on me today, so im sending it for repairs tomorrow and hopefully i can get it back soon and HOPEFULLY i will still retain my files inside or im really screwed for LIFE.
using desktop at the moment, which was recently reformatted so theres totally nothing inside,no games no music no nothing. the next few days are gonna be so painful....
also,this may be late but thanks milko for the name tag, and also for the sms in the middle of the night which woke me up, i appreciate it alot...smiles.
not forgetting mz too, have beenreally concerned about me. both of you have been real sweet, but theres no need to be worried about me.. i am pro.
today was eldest cousin lloyd's wedding, which was quite a big deal cause it was the first wedding in the 3rd generation in the maternal side of my family. after abstaining from tobacco and alcohol for more than a month, i'd thought that glass of red wine was well deserved. the whisky would've been nice if it wasnt mixed with water... and so here goes another month of cold turkeying not drinking alcohol.
and also i've got some annoying cousins. gawd,L2stfu.christ.
i also bought 2 pairs of footwear today. i feel like a girl with a shoe shopping fetish.. but it was more of a need then a vanity impulse.
the ipod nano 4th generation is really fucking sweet. 8gb,double the screen size of the previous 3 generation, brighter,longer battery life,dynamic shape,a little of iphone technology, and most importantly,much CHEAPER then the 3 generations? looks to be a must buy at the price of $248.
when i first bought my 1st generation,it was like 200-300 for 2gb. i bought my 2nd generation 8gb at $360, skipped the 3rd gen cause it was fugly, and now the 4th gen 16gb is only $348 which is cheaper than my gen 2?! no wonder kenny sia was so pissed! steve jobs you must be fucking with us. the only thing was that black and white for gen 4 was epic fail cause the colour scheme was a little different.
